I’ve been waiting on Social Security Disability for 10 months now. I know a lot of people wait longer but I’m all out of resources. I’ve spent all of my savings, my 2005 income tax return, my 401K from my previous job, money that my friend gave me, I’ve about Bankrupted my sister, I’ve even borrowed money that I have no way of making payments on unless my disability comes though this month. I was denied the first time that I filed and when I appealed that decision they said I should know something in about 60 days, well 60 days has come and gone. I’m hoping that something will happen by November 1st because that’s when I’ll be 5 months delinquent on my house payments and the mortgage company will start foreclosure. They suggested that maybe I sell my house before I lose it. Pretty sweet idea, I’ve been paying on it for 15 years and I’ve been through some pretty rough times and have just barely squeaked by several times and now I may have to just be wheeled out and toss the key into the water bucket. I don’t want to be on disability but I have no other choice, I can barely stand up long enough to take a piss. If it were up to me I’d have a job, I’ve worked my whole life, that’s just the way I was raised. I worked as long as i could and then some. A man works and that’s just that. But now when I need a hand the Government is taking a crap on me. The thing that really makes me mad is all of the people that get it when they have the ability to actually be working. My older brother gets it (he’s 52) and he really deserves it if anyone does, he has had a couple of heart attacks and he has a defibulater (sp?) installed in his chest and he is on dialysis 3 times a week and he still gets around better than I do and helps me out whenever he can. Another thing is that if I get denied a second time and I have a Lawyer handle it everyone says I’d surly get it then but the Lawyer will take a LARGE chunck of the back pay. Just because I get a lawyer does that finally make me more disabled and more deserving than I already am? I haven’t done anything wrong and I’ve played by the rules so why should I have to give money away for nothing? Social Security is not gonna make me rich and I should get every penny I can to get a good start, I have a soon to be 16 year old daughter and it would be nice to take care of her, she hasn’t done anything wrong either so why should she suffer because her father has health problems and has no other choice. Well I’m just bitching and it’s not gonna get me anywhere, I’ll probably be moving in with my sister in a couple of weeks (and she doesn’t really have room or the means to take care of me) my daughter will have to move back in with her mom, so I lose my house and my kid, and I don’t even think I could take my dog to my sister’s. It’s enough to make a person put a gun to their head, but don't worry, I can’t do that because I have a deal with God, I won’t eat a bullet and he won’t send me to Hell. I hope everyone else is having a better time. Peace.