Where the Hell have I been?
Been kind of preoccupied lately. Still waiting on the Feds to send me my not so huge refund. Emily has been sick with a cold and missed a couple of days of school, now I’m trying to get sick, my throat is getting scratchy. My brother has been moving and trying to get a new job and I’ve helped him some with getting his resume and application taken care of online, he already had the job he just had to get the paperwork taken care of for the HR dept. My sister is sick with a cold too and she has a friend who has become estranged from her man and is having a rough go of it and staying with her for a while. And to top it off my older brother who has been in rehab after a heart attack has just had another heart attack and has been shipped back to Tulsa to a fourth hospital. I’ve lost track of how long he has been in the hospital now, I guess it’s been more than two months. Worrying about him is getting real old and I’m sure he’s tired of it as well, he’s not one to do well away from home and out of his element. And a woman that tore my heart out through my butt-hole a few years back called me out of the blue last week and I wouldn’t be a bit surprised to look out and see her standing on my porch any day now. I’m kind of torn on how I feel about that. Being friends would be fine but I kind of have a way of thinking with, “Little Chucky” when I’m around her and that leads to having feelings and that could open up an ugly can of worms. I don’t have enough heart left to go through that again. I’d rather spend what energy I can muster on fixing me and my life, and I don’t mean that in a selfish way. I’m no good to myself or anyone else until I’m firing on all cylinders. Well that’s enough of the clichés for now. I think I’m gonna look for a cell phone package today, everyone else has them I might as well give in and get connected too. Take care and have a good one.
posted by Chuck at
1:13 PM
16 Comments:
Sorry to hear your family is all out of sorts. Maybe they will all lead on a good path though... here's hoping.
As for that woman, seem to me that if she fucked you once, she will do it again because she knows she can... or she has changed. Two paths, but if you don't think you have, then it isn't fair to even attempt a do-over. Both parties need a good reality check before attempting at love again. And maybe that isn't even possible. Maybe you both know that friends is the limit.
And the cell phone.. dear godz the cell phone!! Don't do it Chuck!!! It is evil and causes brain cancer!!! I hate those thins, can you tell?? =P
~xmichra.
xmichra - love bites... what more can ya say?
i can't believe i even want a cell phone, i can't stand the way people are connected to them, but i use to be the same way about computers and e-mails. i'm always 10 to 20 years behind everyone else when it comes to technology, i've only had call waiting for about a year and i stil don't have cable or satellite tv, the only reason i want a cell phone is for emergencies, if i get out and alone somewhere and stranded, not being able to walk very well kind of worries me. i guess i'm becoming a big wuss in my old age.
Hey bro, sorry to hear about your brother's health situation, thought for sure he'd be up and running by now. You and Em just hole up and pamper each other through this "muck" that everyone is getting. Even Maxx got pneumonia in his left lung, age 4 and he gets pneumonia!! As for this mystery female, is by chance anyone I would know?? Later my friend, health and happiness to you and yours.
chef - we wish maxx the best, yeah we were looking forward to larry coming home soon and now another set back, i don't believe you would know the mystery gal, she was between my marriage and my nightmare. btw, what's up with the hairy buffalo dance of '85? is that anything like finding your wooly mammoth within? peace brother.
Hey Guy, Long time no post..had the sickness running rampant through this family line too. Serious bummer..these new strains of flu viruses are just no frigging fun at all. First time I ever saw bile by the bucket full..ick ick ick & ouch ouch ouch!
Here's hoping you and yours get the anti-bodies needed to stave off these suckers real quick.
Also praying your brother get's better and isn't too long in rehab. Often times home holds 90% of the medicine needed to recoup. Scary business heart attacks are. :(
Love and the ex..hard to sperak on that one if you still have feelings for her. But I do know this Chuck, finding ones self is far more important and life saving then going another round with someone you're not sure of. I remember reading & hearing when I was young..love yourself first..then and only then can you really love someone else. I understand this now in later life..and it's true.
Be back soon..until then stay well and hang in there.
Mary
xx
mary - great to hear from you, how's things going up north? kind of windy here lately, she hasn't knocked on my door yet so maybe i squeeked by this time. i won't (i hope) go looking for her but if she showed up i probably wouldn't say no, she was the love of my life and i really never stopped having feelings for her i just found a way of dealing with being without her, sure wasn't fair to the other women i saw but i guess i've paid for that, i could do a 12 part series post on screwed up love, maybe i best save that for another day. good to hear from you, keep on keeping on.
Glad you're ok as I tend to worry, when I don't hear from you. Hope everybody begins to feel better and heal. Your brother is still here for a reason, that's for sure. I hope he is able to rise above.
I wish you only the best and I realize you're a nice guy. Don't allow anybody to change that, least of all Old Love. Just go slow and easy, if you can. Good luck my friend, my prayers are w/you!
babs - you know that you're really my only true love, all those other girls are just meaningless dirty sex, if it wasn't for all of the endless mind bending orgasms i probably wouldn't even bother with them, then it would just be me and you babe. xoxo
Well, well, well, just stumbled up on this here blog of yours. I haven't talked to your sis in awhile, maybe call her this weekend. I hope you and Emily are doing well. All is well with me. I have missed being around you guys all these years, but, life goes on. Glad big brother is doing so much better. I better get going, not feeling so great myself this weekend, got a bad case of the "Tahlequah two step".
anonymous with the tahlequah two step - it would be cool to know who you are.
beansnweeners
Your most favorite brother-in-law of course. Sorry, all this high tech stuff, you know, like, fill in the blanks with your name and such, boggles me, simply boggles me!!!
beano nochay senior donnie - good to hear from you, i thought maybe it was you, how's it feel to be a grandpa, i hear that boy of yours landed a pretty sweet job, good for him.
Well, I'll tell ya, bein' a grandpa is absolutely great, I just hate like hell sleepin' with a grandma. Actually, ol' granny ain't too bad either. That boy has got himself a career going, i am very proud of him. Anyway, I was just sittin' here googlin' your sister (I'll leave that one alone), and, I stumbled onto this. It was good to find.
You own my heart Darlin'!
donnie - i guess one should be careful who he googles huh? she figured it was you when i told her about the comment. she told me to sign off with, "Tasty Bananas". anyway it was good to hear from you, i'm always here so come back often, i may even right something worth reading sometime. hey, i remembered that i googled you a while back and found a picture of you at some type of music festival with a dulchimer (i bet i just molested the spelling of that) pretty cool, sis told me you were pretty good at it. well i guess i'll yack at you later, i think it's nap time. take care.
babs - same here, i really am glad to know that you are always around, so many others have faded away. xoxo
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